I woke up this morning at 1:30 and sat in my bed and focused on breathing. At 3 I went out in the living room and scared Dad in the dark when he came out to go to work. He woke mom up when he left, and the two of us sat in the dark and watched Private Benjamin. She went back to bed, and I took another round of medicine. I cringed when the sun came up. All the curtains are still closed.

I never want to be hung over.



yesterday was two years, and we celebrated in usual fashion. it was snowing when he picked me up, I was wore my casablanca hat. I played remember when in my head and he turned off the radio so he could listen to me sing on the ride home. another box on my dresser and redbook promises. sometimes I catch myself off-guard thinking about us, and I'm still so suprised someone could love me that much.


ash @ 1:27 PM