"I haven't been truly happy with a relationship since I was with you, and I ask myself how I was happy with you when I was.
I wonder if its still because I never forgave myself for being selfish and breaking up with you. I consider it the worst thing I've ever done in my life and it haunts me every day. I suppose its also called not being able to move on, but is it the same that I could be a tiny bit happy to see you happy with someone else? I feel like I have moved on, but there are times where I just get pulled back.
I mean, there are times where I am happy. And it makes me question everything even more. I based almost my entire future on the idea of being with you. I get reminded of it every time I find myself being happy."
ash @ 6:08 AM